down.

it is one of those days, the ones that you lay on your bed all day and realize that you wasted all day being lazy.


blehasouras.


today i was looking at jobs online for graphic design positions in chicago (idk why chicago but it would be a city that i would consider living in) and it got to me. i almost when downstairs to my parents and told them that i am dropping out of school and becoming a beach bum in cali. although this would make a great ultimatum, i am going to stay with this degree. its only been a year, but i can definitely feel the attacks of satin all the time. it sucks. life right now is walking fine lines, as in, i am so confused as to what to do. i know i want to be a designer. i want to create. imagine. and do. (that is copy righted by the way... i am going to use that someday. so dibs.) i know that (get ready for cliche -ness) God has a plan, but serious, i have a hard time with waiting. I am a visual person. you cant TELL me something is going to happen, ill believe it when i see it. i guess that just who i am. BUT i did run into this quote. and trust me, i am not some 22 male that likes 15 little girl jr. high quotes, but this was definitely a God thing as i stubble on stubbleupon.com ha. here it is

This is your life.

Do what you love, and do it often.

If you don’t like something, change it.

If you don’t like you’re your job, quit.

If you don’t have enough time, stop watching TV.

If you are looking for the love of your life, stop;

They will be waiting for you when you start doing the things you love

Stop over analyzing, life is simple

All emotions are beautiful.

When you eat, appreciate every last bite

Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people,

We are united in our differences.

Ask the next person and see what there passion is,

And share your inspiring dream with them.

Travel often;

Getting lost will help you find yourself

There are some opportunities that only come once, seize them.

Life is about the people you meet,

And the things you create with them so go out and start creating.

Life is short.

Live your dream and wear your passion.

amen. 

robs. 

bitter.

welp. its three days before my 22nd birthday... let it be know i can show you my age with two peace signs. bomb.

another year has come and gone and now i wonder what i have done with it. to be honest a lot has changed. and its been one heck of a boat ride. i just wish i was more on the path of jesus and less of the rough (in golf terms of course)

confession: recently i have been listening to glee covers. i know glee. holy crap. robbie? yes i know. but literally i have never heard such raw talent, and to some of my favorite songs. i wish i could sing along with them and harmonize. i just wished i had singing capability. i prayed when i was younger that god would take away all the things i am good at and just have a singing voice.

seeing my sister have a voice of (insert best singer here) is so humbling considering NONE of the family can sing except for her. oh youll get a kick out of this. there was a time when sarah was noticed for her voice and i wanted to switch lives with her, just for a day. I want to know what it is like to sing along with the radio and not be ashamed that you cant harmonize and get embarrassed when your the only one in the car! ha

in all of this pity party,

i am thankful for what God has given me. although at times, i feel like i dont have somthing to offer besides the occasional kill in volleyball or certificate making skills. i just pray that i will find my groove and use it for the right reasons. I want to support a family and that requires a job which requires an area of expertise that i need to find. yeah i am going into graphic design field, just i just always feel down, like i am not good enough to make it in the world. (also i think that is satan talking... eh) one day. things will all work out. and things will be worth it. God is always good and he will provide. its enviable. 

on a positive note...

im getting my camera, im going to kansas city, school is less than a month away, and i kinda like a girl.

oh dang.

let this be noted from here on out, 

robs

dating for dummies.

sometimes i wonder what would i be like if i dated in high school. i mean i dont know how many girls would have said yes to this body of bones but i mean if i did... would i treat women any differently?

just food for my thought i guess.

sometimes i feel like ricky bobby when i comes to women, not in the sense of "where do i put my hands?" ha but at the same time i wonder what i should be doing if i am interested in someone. ha idk. just been thinking a lot and we all know what that leads too...

destruction.

i refuse to screw this one up! Promise God!

BUT other than dumb girls.

work is great. i gots a hair cut and totally fresh lookin now. strait up looks like i am from a 12 year old eddie bower mag. yeah im a little "too clean cut" for my liking, but hey hair will grow back and i can look like that rugged "i dont care about you" college look. hoo ha.

cant wait til Aug 16. just saying.

bailey is spending the night tonight... bleh. almost like sarah is trying to torture me. jk. she is cool i guess.

enough with the s.

i have work all day tomorrow. God you are good! 

love  

persistence.

well hello again. 


since our last encounter, there has been a lot of change. 


new car
new job(s)?


tba


BUT i did go visit teav in mt. v 


fun and totally worth it
too bad someone had to go to PA. ehg


volleyball started yesterday. we lost. again ehg.


OK so this pizza place, (my job i for sure have) Marco's Pizza, if you live in tulsa and want me to come to your door step with delicious pizza, call me. ill give you what you want. 


that wasnt supposed to be sexual but take it as you please. 


so much for extending my vocab, pfft.


ok well hopefully i will update again soon.


heres a poem:
why oh why did you go away
without you i am grey
one of these days i want to say
that you my friend make my day


peace and pals. 
robs

summer.

oh man. 

oh man.

oh man.

been quite a while since i have bloggggged.

im not complaining. 

summer is here. it started two thursdays ago. and ever since then my heart has kinda sunk. BUT high hope for this great break!

in a nut shell. 

my car is gone. i dont have a job. my friends are in different states or cities... ugh. i could complain for another hour. (not) but i am trying this new thing. 

its called being positive. 

i know shock. but my mother has told me this recently. no matter what the outcome, just be positive. It will go a long way. 

i cant wait for the potential road trip that will probably fall through! I mean a man can only dream! haha

might hold interest in someone may not. 

i want work on these few things this summer:

--extend my vocabulary 

--use my extended vocabulary in every day sentences 

--do something i am afraid of and conquer it

--being bold

--learn a new tool on photoshop each week

--being consistent

--putting others before myself

--grow a relationship

--build a fort

--write notes

--memorize Ephesians 

--send a package to someone

--help a elderly man/woman with yard work

--be myself

eh i say those can be accomplished.

look out for them, i am going to post :)

love to all

  

rope.

well my friends. 


its been quite a while since i have updated this thing. life has been busy, God has been good. and all the time i am always pushing for the day of summer. 


spring break was nice and relaxing. worked a 8-4 monday through friday. had dinner with the extended fam a couple of times. and just chilled and did art. (took pictures as well)


i really like photography. i am determined to get a camera. real talk as sarah would say.


is anyone else excited for easter? (thank you jesus for dying for us, but thank you for inventing chocolate)


jew is beautiful with her new look. i mean even more than she was with long hair. i dont know why she is single. 


kyle and i just edited pics for photography class tomorrow. i dont know how its going to turn out, seeing how its narrative and i just took pictures with my shoes haha but we will see. 


aaaallllllsssssoooo nominations are tomorrow for kappa.... cross your fingers kids. hope all goes well.


i need to stop drinking pop. 


now for the juicy stuff. 
rob ramble #9. 


why is mcdonalds so good? i might get an egg mcmuffin in the morning. and speaking of egg mcmuffins. i miss my mom. i didnt really get to see/hang out with her over break, but i know that we will sometime. i miss mother/son moments. hope we get some more in.


i found a car that i like. (which is rare cuz i am picky) but its real nice. honda accord. now just getting it is a different story. haha i am second in line :/


love all to my friends
keep rambling.


rob

survior.

i needed a new look. so i went for the earth. ironic because i live on it? eh.

i am having a great week for the 5 of you that will read this. just fo yo info.

my art work was enter into the student art work show at the end of the year! hoopla! had my first officer meeting was yesterday... interesting... i love when people go behind your back and do things that you told them not to do and they do them anyway.... JB. yeah i know you know that you are toast. good luck with your project because now you don't have my support at all. 

i love blogs. 

currently: watching survivor with amsterdam and countlessly waiting the minutes til we go to chipotle. 

I CANT WAIT TIL SPRING BREAK!

that is all. 

i really dont have a ramble so i am going to take an absence. 

keep rambling.

robs.