another year has come and gone and now i wonder what i have done with it. to be honest a lot has changed. and its been one heck of a boat ride. i just wish i was more on the path of jesus and less of the rough (in golf terms of course)
confession: recently i have been listening to glee covers. i know glee. holy crap. robbie? yes i know. but literally i have never heard such raw talent, and to some of my favorite songs. i wish i could sing along with them and harmonize. i just wished i had singing capability. i prayed when i was younger that god would take away all the things i am good at and just have a singing voice.
seeing my sister have a voice of (insert best singer here) is so humbling considering NONE of the family can sing except for her. oh youll get a kick out of this. there was a time when sarah was noticed for her voice and i wanted to switch lives with her, just for a day. I want to know what it is like to sing along with the radio and not be ashamed that you cant harmonize and get embarrassed when your the only one in the car! ha
in all of this pity party,
i am thankful for what God has given me. although at times, i feel like i dont have somthing to offer besides the occasional kill in volleyball or certificate making skills. i just pray that i will find my groove and use it for the right reasons. I want to support a family and that requires a job which requires an area of expertise that i need to find. yeah i am going into graphic design field, just i just always feel down, like i am not good enough to make it in the world. (also i think that is satan talking... eh) one day. things will all work out. and things will be worth it. God is always good and he will provide. its enviable.
on a positive note...
im getting my camera, im going to kansas city, school is less than a month away, and i kinda like a girl.
oh dang.
let this be noted from here on out,
robs
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